My Mum came up for the week to help look after Owen and Flynn and ended up looking after me for the most part. I got mastitis (bloody hell!!!!!!!!!!!) and got very sick. So I was very lucky to have her here when I needed help the most. My sister was also here and become Owen's nanny, she was a great help too!!Last week was a horrible blur. Flynn seems to be a fairly relaxed baby compared to Owen, but breastfeeding is so difficult for me. I had terribly cracked and bleeding nipples, and sore lumpy breasts .It took on average 30 mins for me to attach Flynn, by which time he was a screaming wreck and so was I. Only to have to endure a feed so painful I basically cried through the entire time. And the worst part was knowing I had to do it all over again within a few hours. The nights were the worst; being alone just made it that much worse.
I am really disappointed I didn't have the strength to persist. Everyone I know could do it. Everyone I know said 'oh it will get better'. But I honestly could not see how. It was just getting worse. I did enlist the help of a very good lactation consultant but I needed her every feed. So like Owen, Flynn will be a formula fed baby. I physically feel a lot better, mentally I now enjoy feeding my son but I feel guilty. And OMG going cold turkey has turned me into a hormonal mess. Hopefully things will begin to settle down, feeding wise, soon.
My Mum and Flynn, I will miss her terribly!
The Boys
Flynn
Owen + Flynn
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