Thursday, September 15, 2011

Brotherly love.... not yet....

Owen rarely acknowledges Flynn's existence. He is pretty much in toddler denial. But this morning I put Flynn on Owen's lap and he held him for a few moments before pushing him away. I did not get photographic evidence of this but did get a photo of them in close proximity to each other...
This has been my first week of solo parenting during the day. I have done ok. Tried to get out everyday and even did the grocery shopping. But emotionally I have been a bit of a mess. Lots of tears about...well I am not to sure...and I have been very impatient with Owen and have gotten overly angry at him a few times to the point I have had to put myself in time out....Flynn is waking every 3 hours to feed (come on kido... you're a formula fed baby) and sleep deprivation is hurting me. I used to brag about how I never felt sleep deprivation with Owen as he slept well at night from the start... I guess this is just pay back....but all in all I am very lucky to have two beautiful healthy boys...

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  1. Emy you are doing great! Having a baby and a toddler is hard work. I remember going to mothers group with the two oldest when Sammy was just a baby (they were 21 months apart). Josh used to hit her and throw toys into her capsule. I was horrified! I used to look at the other women and see their older children dote on their new brother or sister thinking that I was doing something wrong and then I realised that the ones that weren't having problems had a girl first. I reckon that little girls are used to playing with dolls and when a baby comes along they cope better with the changes than boys. It took Isabella a couple of months to transition into a nice 'big' sister instead of a monster and she'll be 5 at the end of the year. She reverted to wetting her bed and having daily tantrums where she'd throw herself on the floor.
    I know it's hard coping with sleepless nights and then waking to a toddler who's demanding your attention. Just remember to be kind to yourself and that this period is only for a short time. So if you need a day when you turn the TV on and use it as a babysitter so that you can do nothing but feed Flynn then do it. Hamish is 4 months old and I still have a day a week or sometimes more when the TV is on for the whole day, I'm not out of pyjamas until morning tea time and the house is not fantastic. I try to remember the "happy wife, happy life" saying and give myself a little break.
    Also the crying is totally normal and I did my fair share for the first couple of months. Even now when I've had a lot of bad nights in a row I've been known to have a pity party and cry for no reason.
    It does get better!!

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